Couldn’t help but bawl my eyes out as I felt God dealing with me while I listened to this song. It was the last night of conference and although I had come here with great expectations to encounter God; the pivotal moment for me wasn’t in the presence of other believers singing songs of praise and adoration. It wasn’t in the powerful and timely seminars that were shared and it was neither in the beautiful performances on stage nor in the fellowship of Christian brothers and sisters. For me that experience came long before Commissioning while in the hotel kitchen on the last night, alone; vulnerable before God saying, “Here I am Lord, use me. I wanna be more like you.”
I can’t begin to describe the moment but I had been dwelling on the song since the morning. I heard a friend playing it at sound check and it just stuck. Later that evening, I just felt God tugging on my heart. I walked into the kitchen and shut the door. Laid the phone on the table and as the song played, began praying and as if someone had opened a hydrant; started to bawl. A few minutes later, my best friend walks in and without a word, sits down next to me and begins bawling as well.
Sometime later the rest of the guys come in and we huddle in prayer inside that small kitchen. I couldn’t help but reflect upon on all the talks throughout the conference on community and also brotherhood. I was in awe.
Thank you Father for loving me and blessing me with such gifted young men that are sold out for You and the Kingdom. I am honoured to call them brothers. Help us be more like You.
Shine Your Light I want to feel You now
God I need a miracle
Take my heart make it glow
Shine Your Light from the inside out
I want to be more like You
If You are the Sun then I want to be the moon
Sun & Moon by Phil Wickham